Did I give up on the X100F too soon? Nah.

It took me less than 24 hours with the Fuji X100F to know it wasn’t the camera for me. One of the main reasons I switched to a Fuji X-T1 three years ago was the tactile nature of shooting. There was a dedicated dial or control ring or button for just about everything. I could look at my camera and know exactly what the settings were. It felt like shooting my old Canon AE-1 and I loved that.

The X100F is a beautiful camera but it lacks that tactile feel.

I find myself having to go into the internal menu often to adjust things that can’t be controlled via the custom function buttons (bracketing, shooting mode, etc) and it reminds me too much of shooting my Canon DSLR’s back in the day. That’s not a good thing. (I’m sure this is all complete gibberish for anyone unfamiliar with photography gear. Sorry).

Another feature I really miss is an articulating screen. As someone who wears glasses, I rely on this feature a lot because I can’t put my eye to the viewfinder without smudging my glasses.

And so, the X100F will go back tomorrow and my new Fuji X-T2 should be arriving in a few days. I really love the premise of the X100 series and the styling is on point (I wish they’d remove the front branding from the X-T2) but for me, the pros don’t outweigh the cons.

However, in my quest to simplify, I am keeping just one of my lenses (the 23mm f/1.4, which has been my most used) because working within the constraints of just one focal length is really appealing to me.

I did really appreciate the challenge of shooting with a rangefinder style camera, which I’ve never done before. Working with new gear did cause me to shift my perspective and think outside my normal box. It was, in a word, refreshing.

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Learning something new… Frustrating, isn’t it?

We learn the tools of our trade inside and out, which more often than not, translates into speed, efficiency, and accuracy. That’s why I’m so frustrated right now.

Today, my rented Fujifilm X100F arrived via FedEx and I’ve really been looking forward to playing with it. Unfortunately for me, there’s a learning curve. Thankfully not too steep as I’ve been shooting Fuji gear for the past three years. But even so, there’s still plenty to figure out.

Learning new gear kind of sucks. But I’m trying to keep an open mind.

After all, I’ve only been playing around with the thing for a few hours thus far. I have several more days to acquaint myself with this small, compact and yet very powerful tool.

This isn’t by any means a review, but my initial reactions are positive. The size is wonderful. I slung it from my neck while out with my kids and barely noticed it. It’s easy to shoot with one hand, which is nice. I’m often holding a kid with the other. The menu settings are not as intuitive as I would like. They seem to be more complicated than my X-T1. But of course, I can’t have everything.

My primary need is a professional quality camera that’s compact enough to get tossed in my bag. Because I can’t use it if I never take it with me. And I never took my X-T1 with me – the lenses made it too bulky. The X100F is pleasant to shoot with. I’m sure with time and practice, I’ll get all the custom settings arranged the way I like and then the learning curve will disappear.

I look forward to continuing to play with it this week. Here are a few shots from this evening to start with. Light and contrast are probably my two favorite things when it comes to photography.

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I sold my digital gear.

It’s hard to remember a time before digital photography, isn’t it? I remember the days of film. In fact, a lot of the time, shooting film feels more normal to me than pulling out a digital camera and peeking at the LCD screen. I grew up shooting film cameras. Never anything fancy, nothing near professional quality, and yet film has a quality all it’s own that sets it apart, regardless of the gear it was shot on.

Though I have always loved taking pictures, I got serious about photography toward the end of 2008 and decided to really study it. Three years later, I opened my own photography business. It just seemed the natural progression. It was probably one of the worst decisions I’ve ever made. No one ever told me that just because you’re good at something doesn’t mean you have to get paid for doing it.

Turning my passion into a profession killed any joy I got out of taking pictures.

The more pictures I took for other people, the less I picked up my camera to document my own life. My own children. My own experiences. I never picked it up just for the sheer pleasure of creating a photograph. And it didn’t help that cameras had become so big and heavy.

I tried to counter that by purchasing an old film camera – a Canon AE-1. I thought this smaller, old school, fully manual camera (manufactured the same year I was born) would offer me something new, bring me some clarity, show me how to have fun with my photography again. But it didn’t. I told myself it was just because the image quality wasn’t good enough.

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It wasn’t the image quality. A camera is just a tool. It was just me. I was being suffocated by taxes and licensing and paperwork. And more than any of that, I was being suffocated by social media – by the pull to create something “Instagram worthy.” Essentially, by trying to keep up with the Joneses.

But of course, I refused to admit that so instead, I bought a “better” film camera. And oh, it produced beautiful images. But it didn’t change my perspective. I only shot two rolls of film through it before I put it on a shelf and let it collect dust.

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I’ll spare you the details of struggling to find balance between my work and my life but suffice to say, I never really achieved it. I finally had to admit that I loved photography, but I hated running a photography business. Last year, after seven years as a professional photographer, I closed said business. I should’ve done it much sooner. Yet, even so, I continued to freelance up until last month. I just couldn’t seem to call it quits all together. Each time my work was published somewhere, I’d get this little high of satisfaction. I craved that recognition. After all, it feels good to do something well and be noticed for it.

A few weeks back, I realized I needed to commit. I needed to be either all in or all out, and clearly, all in didn’t work for me. My license expired June 30 and I didn’t renew it. I began selling off the bulk of my digital gear and as I sit writing this, I have just one camera body and one lens left. And a funny thing happened as that first lens left my possession a few weeks ago…I felt such a sense of relief. I came home and over the next week or so, I finished shooting a roll of film that had been in my camera for probably six months.

And I really enjoyed it.

For the first time in a long time, I picked up a camera just for the love of photography. And it felt really good.

While I do still want to have a digital camera (can’t be helped when family lives too far away and sending pictures to your deployed spouse is a near daily activity), as a former professional photographer, I have no need for a full kit. In fact, I’ve rented a Fujifilm X100F for this week as a test drive. It’s a high quality, fixed lens camera that can go with me everywhere. And that’s really what I want out of a camera. I want it to be an extension of myself, a second set of eyes, recording anything and everything that appeals to me.

I can’t wait.

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